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#o34 - and I can't make it on my own...

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 18:42:37 GMT

because my heart is in Ohio ♥ ♥ ♥

fanficjunkie // fanficjunkie // fanficjunkie

New layout over here :D I'm so proud of this one.

#o33 - see you at the bitter end

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 16:48:22 GMT

I've been having serious mood swings lately. I don't know exactly why but I think it might be because of all the stress lately and the frustration & anger I've felt a few times lately ^^" I also lost about 3 pounds when doing absolutely nothing for it, I think it might also be the stress cause I really can't explain it any other way. My brother and mother are worried because of it -_- (they've just been here, eating dinner with me <3) even though I told them I've been eating as usually (which doesn't mean that I've eaten a lot but yeah.. I never lost weight because of my eating habits before so I don't know why it happened now...)

Elsewhere there's not much to tell, or maybe too much because I really don't know where to start. My life's been a rollercoaster lately, going up and down way too quickly. Every happy event was followed by a bad one and vica versa. School's been wearing me out, as well as my friends, and pretty much anything actually. I feel really tired all the time (I fell asleep on the sofa the day before yesterday while watching tv for no reason at all) and I'm only ever active when meeting up with someone to go out.

I've been out and about quite a lot since I've met Georg (guy I've met at airrock when celebrating Beccy's birthday) but I'm not at all sure if I'm happy with the way things are going. I'm starting to feel like an ass again because I just can't seem to settle down and say 'hey I've found a guy I really really really like'. Perhaps I'm just not made for relationships-- I'm really starting to believe it. I don't even want one at the moment (with school and everything going on I'd barely have time for a relationship anyway) but it seems that I'm the only one thinking this way. I just wanna go out and have fun (yeah, I know that sounds kinda bad but it's how I feel) without having to worry about being an ass or being egoistical or whatever (hence entry #o31).

So, uhm, enough of that. What has happened the last few days? Beccy slept over on friday, we watched some movies, listened to music and talked a bit. It was nice <3 On saturday I went out with Sina because I'd promised her. It was great, we first went to Soho Vienna and sung karaoke there (I'm a bitch by Meredith Brooks, hehe) and also got two free drinks from some men 30+ -.- (reason for my weird entry before). Afterwards we went to play pool for an hour - I think I won but I'm not sure, it was either 3:1 for me or 2:2. That was pretty much my weekend and today my mum and bro visited me because my brother cooked chili for me <3 I love my family, they're the ones I can always rely on no matter what happens.

So, yeah, that was pretty much it. Angie just came back today and now we have to do something for school x.x We have that Slovakia Project this week which means I'll hardly have time for anything other than school. I'm sleeping in Bratislava from wednesday to thursday. The only two pros I can think of that this Project brings is that a) I'm getting out of Vienna and b) I have no school for a whole week.

I could really use some holidays already *waits impatiently for fall holidays*

#o31 - Things I'm sick and tired of

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 18:47:28 GMT

First of all, I'm sick and tired of not being able to get home before 6pm on mondays and tuesdays.

I'm sick and tired of having so much homework that I can only get about 6 hours sleep every night instead of the 7 or 8 I usually so desire.

I'm sick and tired of getting home and feeling fucking sick and tired of everything.

I'm sick and tired of being so useless that I can't even talk to Rosey properly anymore, much less post with her.

I'm sick and tired of always being the bad guy (girl).

I'm fucking sick and tired of being told how I act and who I am.

I'm fucking sick and tired of not being able to find someone that can make days like today bearable.

I'm fucking sick and tired of being judged for various things.

I'm sick of being hurt and I'm damned tired of discussions.

I'm tired of trying to work things out that I have the feeling will never really work out again.

I'm sick and tired of having the 4384th discussion this week already. I'm tired of being angry and of crying. I'm tired of people who think that I enjoy doing this. I don't. I fucking hate it.

I'm fucking sick and tired of being expected to do all those things I can't do and to be expected to manage it all.

I'm tired of apologizing, of empty promises, but most of all, of "okay"s that tell you everything is not okay. I'm tired of feeling like I could sleep for years without regretting it.

I'm sick and tired that every good event in my life has to be followed by something bad or another fight. I'm sick and tired of pretending I've been doing fucking okay the past week. I'm not.

I hate this.

#o30 - long day

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 17:07:11 GMT

Shamelessly snatched from slytherinblack. Comment with your name and I'll tell you:

1. Something random about you.
2. The song or movie that reminds me of you.
3. Something that only makes sense to you and me.
4. My first/clearest memory of you.
5. The animal you remind me of.
6. Something that I've always wondered about you.

I just had the most wonderful shower ever after a long long exhausting day.

I feel all good and clean now x)

#o29 - France Part Two - New Memories (Bretagne)

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 18:31:22 GMT

walk through the door to nowhere
see what you will find

take a rest and find yourself

the sound of crashing waves, it resounds in my ears
this place is where life begins

we're on this lonely road, where the legend lies

where your heart is

soft fires burning on my skin, I've new memories to carry home with me

hold this dream tightly in your grasp,
this place will be ours for only one day

be careful of what you might find here, dark secrets lie ahead

welcome home

watch as the world says goodbye,
the cool breeze carries its whisper

walk the sandy path, walk it,
one day you'll find what you're searching for

follow the footsteps of someone old,
to end up in a place so new,
feel the life around you, see the path in front of you
and let me walk with you

at least, for a little while

#o28 - you lie through your teeth // you smile in your sleep

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 19:17:41 GMT

First of all, new livejournal layout again.

So, concerning my last entry, I wasn't quite in a good mood when I made it, that's the reason why I haven't told you guys anything. I am however feeling better now and have been for a few days, even if I have a cold since saturday morning now and even had a slight fever sunday evening. I'm well, at least emotionally.

So, where to start? I just checked and the previous time I really wrote something was on my first schoolday this year. Well, this year is gonna be very different than the last. Mainly because we have some new subjects, one of them being project management that will take up a lot of my time. We've already formed groups concerning that and we're already being drilled into working for that project - it's gonna take up the whole year too. So, what's this project about? Well, first of all it's gonna be in two languages; half of it in german and half of it in (!) french. We're going to France with school for one week this year and our project management teacher as well as our french teacher wants us to present something about the country. Our group decided upon reporting about the lifestyle of youths in France and we're likely to end up comparing them to ours. Doesn't sound very exciting, I know. The thing is, we need a so called product by the end of our project that we can present - and no, it's not just a presentation about what we found out/what the differences are and what they are not.

When the teacher asked it of us to come up with something, we couldn't, and she really wasn't very nice about it. Perhaps she had a bad day or something because I really don't know her. She's just weird, though. So anyway, at the end of our PM lessons (we had two today) I came up with something: a homepage. True, doesn't sound very exciting but I think if we make it interactive enough and with things that peek people's interest, we're gonna be fine. The thing is since I'm the only one in my group who knows HTML & Web-Design, I practically got myself more work throughout my own idea -_- How stupid am I? Ah well, it can't be that difficult.

Either way, I just realized this whole entry has been about project management óÒ I don't know what to think of the subject quite yet except that I am: scared and yet interested. I know I'm gonna curse this project to hell more than once but I can't help but feel a little excited about it as well. We haven't done something like this up until now and it might be a nice change to our usual classes.

Done with that, I'm not sure if I told you guys that me and my brother planned on taking part in jiu-jitsu course. Well, we are but the thing is that my brother told me yesterday that's its gonna be two times a week, instead of one. And I also want to take up dance classes this year, preparations for the Cambridge English Certificate and of course, go to drama classes again. I'm not sure if I can make all of those things work, at least not together :/ But we'll see.

The one thing that is really annoying since school started again is the fact that I don't see my friends a lot anymore (well I see Angie every day cause we're going to the same school). I miss being together and meeting up to do stupid things like going shopping or lazing around somewhere, or eating running sushi. It gets annoying and even a little depressing after some time if you do the same things every single day: sleep, go to school, do your homework, eat. then repeat. *sigh*

I feel like there is still something important that I wanted to say, something more than this, but it seems like I've forgotten it.

#o27 - France Part One - Quiet Moments (Bretagne)

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 19:49:55 GMT

and the feeling of loneliness, it just won't fade,
this whole new world has got me feeling so small, so small

and bare feet shall carry you home, they'll carry you home safe and sound

here in this silence all my thoughts are of you, only you

every day she's dying, dying all over again

this place has been enchanted by the light you brought with you

you're only a shadow

let the sun shine through the leaves, it might touch your face

close your eyes, this is the road to nowhere

drive towards the sun and see where it will lead you

and even when the birds have stopped singing and the sun slowly sets,
and the waves keep on crashing, we just know, we just know,
this is a wonderful world

#o26 - Silly little game

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 19:59:07 GMT

Post your 10 favourite Bands & TV-Shows or Films and let your LJ friends guess what's your favorite song (character) from each of them.

01 atreyu - you give love a bad name haste_my_day
02 cake - take it all away
03 emery - left with alibis and lying eye haste_my_day
04 the academy is - black mamba haste_my_day
05 four star mary - thrown to the wolves streberlein
06 garbage - number one crush phoenix7771
07 HIM - lose you tonight streberlein
08 U2 - one haste_my_day
09 muse - sing for absolution streberlein
10 maroon 5 - through with you streberlein

---

01 lost - sawyer
02 simpsons - homer streberlein
03 the lion king - scar haste_my_day
04 harry potter - severus snape streberlein
05 star wars - anakin haste_my_day
06 interview with the vampire - armand
07 south park - kenny streberlein
08 buffy - angelus
09 king of queens - carey haste_my_day
10 sin city - dwight haste_my_day

#o25 - HAWT

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 22:49:42 GMT

Yes, I confess this is a totally self-loving post.

For once.

#o24 - // But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 22:09:10 GMT

Because I was bored and Rosey told me to post them. I'm being silly, just so you know. I have more but I should really get some sleep x)

#o23 - //Is this the place we used to love?//

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 12:24:59 GMT

Just making a quick list of what I need to do today, so I won't forget:

* get papers signed (--> done!)
* go down to the bank (--> done!)
* go to the supermarket (--> done!)
* do german homework
* search old school stuff and if I can't find it, call Luki (-->found it!)
* clean my flat. ugh. (--> done!)

I'm so tired. School was boring. Maybe I'll write about it later.

#o22

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 19:41:17 GMT

AAAAAAAAAAAH.

I forgot the most important thing of all xD

I'm getting my hair cut on friday, 2pm <3 <3 <3 <3

I can't wait. If I like it (and I hope that I will love it seeing as I'll pay enough for it), then you lot can be sure to see some pics x)

#o21 - // love me or leave me or rip me apart //

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 19:33:53 GMT

Got back from France, forgot to mention that I was actually leaving for it. Oh well. Pics at a later time, too many that I have to upload & sort out.

http://fanficjunkie.livejournal.com
New layout. Not as original as the last one but I like the colors and LJ is currently acting weird so I'm going to play around with it another time. Or not at all. I like it how it is.

France, to put it short, was a blast. I took over 250 pictures, lots of sunsets, urban photos and of course sea photos. The Bretagne is a beautiful place; even more beautiful than Paris but then again you probably can't really compare those two.

School started today and seeing as everyone of my friends has already gone over it, I'm not going to talk about it a lot. We're 35 people in my class now which.. sucks. I'm no longer in the same group as my best friend which means I have to go to classes like english, text processing and project management (new subject!) on my own, or at least without her. I can't say I'm very motivated for this. I actually was at first but then I found out that two classes would be thrown together and we'd become a large class again... and I didn't look forward to that. Especially since we have so many new people now that it will be difficult to somehow get along with them all. We have boys in our class again, 7 or so, but I'm not getting my hopes up. At all.

So erm yes, that was my first school day this year. It was okay, I suppose. I thought it would be more annoying but it was good to see our form teacher (is that the right word? I don't know what its called in english) again. She rocks my socks and I was a little scared of losing her. But we haven't so it's alright. And I got to keep my english teacher which makes it all the better.

I just realized I only ended up talking about school anyway x.x Ah well. I guess since school is starting it's all I'm going to be talking about sooner or later. I can't wait for theater classes to start again, as well as to get to my classes for the Cambridge English Certification I wanted to do. Oh and btw, I'm starting russian this year. Am a little worried I'll have trouble pronouncing things, to be honest ._.

Right, that's it from me. I'm too sick to write anything more x.x I haven't eaten anything today except chinese food just half an hour ago. Now my stomach is complaining terribly. x.x

#o2o - Totally useless post but...

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 20:02:54 GMT

OMG.

Egi is teh shit <3 I love him. *hugs him*

Hopefully we'll be able to see each other more often. He's absolutely great and despite my fear of him changing into someone I wouldn't be able to recognize/get along with, our meeting was great.

We thought we'd only meet up for like two hours. Well, we ended up talking almost 5 hours <3

My friends are the best

:)

#o19 - // Tonight the sky is painted //

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 14:37:39 GMT

So, I'm alive though I must confess that I'm totally beat. The goth thing? Wasn't so bad after all.

Michi, Beccy and me were supposed to meet at 10.30pm. In the end I think we met up at like 10.40pm but I already knew that would happen seeing as I took quite long to get ready. Lately I just don't know what to do with my hair - it's so annoying and it needs to be cut. I wish it was straight and not so damn wavy. Anyway. The monastery is smaller than I'd imagined it and when we first arrived I really felt out of place. Well, that feeling stayed until later as well, only difference being that at some point I stopped caring. Anyway, entry was 5 € and when we went in we were greeted by the sight of a couple of goths who looked at us a little oddly just because I was wearing jeans (haha, yes, I wasn't wearing all black :P) and Beccy was wearing tights with stripes and looking very emo (though she denied it - which was quite pointless since she drew a little star under her left [?] eye). We met up with Chris, then went down to the bar & dance floor.

At first I felt like I just walked in on the wrong movie set or something lol but the atmosphere was really cool. The music isn't neccessarily something I could listen to like I listen to rock and that kind of stuff, but quite a lot of songs are really good to dance to. Well, we ended up at the bar at first where we met one of Chris' friends. Beccy and me mainly spent the first hour looking around and staring at people LOL. We watched a cross-dresser dance for quite some time because he was really cool and later Beccy said that she thinks he is somewhat "mysteriously sexy" or something along those lines (note: she was already a little tipsy when she told me that) which, as weird as it is, I definitely have to agree. He was dancing better than most girls oO So, after watching a lot and trying to stop Beccy from doing something stupid (she decided making bubbles in a goth club was something fun to be tried) and talking about going dancing, we actually did end up on the dancefloor. Not for long, heh, but it was fun. Next time though we're going to a goth club, I'll be wearing all black xD Though I was wearing my emily the strange sweater and the cat eyes glowed prettily on the dancefloor <3

After a while we went back to the bar and Michi, who.. well, he wasn't/isn't in the best of moods, to be honest. I'm worried but then again I always am ^^' I'd say the night was a success even though my eyes started hurting really bad from all the smoke and Michi and me had a little.. disagreement. Also talked to Beccy about certain things which made me more than a little contemplative. We ended up leaving at like 3 in the morning (or maybe a bit later, I can't remember) but seeing as there was no public transportation possible except the nightline, we walked a bit and then took a taxi. Slept over at Beccy's, though I only slept like three hours. It's odd though, it's been one of these days/nights when I'm not sure what to think. Some things that happened were.. disappointing and made me a little sad, others were fun. It was a weird night. So, at Beccy's we ate pizza (okay, the others did, I wasn't really that hungry) and talked though seeing as we were all like sitting on the couch or armchairs, I fell asleep for a moment or two.

Then everyone decided to go to bed. Michi and me slept on the coach which err.. sucked. Because it was very uncomfortable and so cold in the morning. Still, Michi and me talked a bit (not a lot though since we were both tired and I really wasn't in a talkative mood) before falling asleep. Then my brother called me at like noon and woke me up x.x Beccy made me some coffee which err... was totally.. undrinkable. xD Then my mum called me because she wanted to go shoe-shopping.. so we went shopping with me looking like I'd had a rough night and slept too little (which was actually true). I ended up buying 4 shirts for only 35 € and a pair of boots with like 3 or 4 inch heels haha. They look hot <3

So, that's mainly what I've been doing and I'm meeting up with Egmont in.. 25 minutes which means I really should run. I'm going to post later about that or another time. We'll see. I might just go to sleep when I get back from meeting up with Egi.

<3 you all

#o18 - // I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand //

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 15:12:39 GMT

Okay, so my best friend and me made up, so I'm feeling a lot better and very relieved (:

Except my two days of being down not a lot has happened really. Let's see. Tuesday I didn't do anything though I had planned to meet up with my best male friend; but my back hurt really bad (its because of my stupid period. x.x) and I was in a really bad mood so I called Egi and asked him to meet up another time. So we're meeting up tomorrow, I can't wait to see him <3

Wednesday was mainly about this:

Creative Touch Zen, 20GB <3

I bought it for ~180 € at amazon.de which really isn't expensive and mind you, I bought it from my own money. Makes me love it all the more. On the way back home from picking it up, I saw a guy who's attending my school as well (he's got really cute hair, heh) and we grinned at each other while walking by. It was really weird. My mother said that I was blushing -_-" I'm still in denial. I don't blush xD Thursday after work I made up with Angie and we decided to meet up and go to an open-air-cinema in the evening. Well, at least we planned to do that. But when we got there it started raining (deja-vu, huh?) and since I was only in a skirt and flip-flops and I really didn't want to get drenched again, we decided to head to my flat. Beccy and Angie stayed till 10pm (they mainly spent their time taking pictures of themselves lol sometimes those girls can be really narcisstic <3. I might post some of them just for fun once I upload them to my computer) but then decided to go home. Michi stayed and we watched Pulp Fiction - that movie is great, my favourite scene is still the dancing one though. Or the one where Vincent and what's-his-name-again talk about foot massages.

So since the movie was only over at like half past midnight, Michi 'slept' over at mine once again. Which means that we mainly watched tv and I ended up getting like 3 hours of sleep. Which is okay since I only had to work till 2pm today. Afterwards I went a little shopping and discovered a cool Emily the Strange jacket/sweater.

I ended up buying it-- any guesses on how expensive it was? ;)

So, that's what happened the past few days. Not really important stuff but it's been a rollercoaster and I spent money on things that I really really like. That can't be too bad, huh? Tonight we're probably going out to the monastery, to some kind of goth party oO I'm a little scared, to be honest, but very amused at the same time.

We'll see how it goes.

#o17 - // your revolution is a joke //

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:09:51 GMT

If a friend hurts you unintentionally, but does so a lot, and then you try to tell her about it and she acts as if you're on drugs and claims she's acting like always, what do you do?

This time I know it isn't me.

I want to know what's going on and why I suddenly need to be scared of losing my best friend.

#o16 - My day in a nutshell

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 15:02:33 GMT

#o15 - // Laughed at the kings that knelt down before me //

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 06:07:35 GMT

So, yeah, seeing as I haven't posted in weeks, I thought it might be a good idea to say that, yes, I'm still alive. I'm at work right now and it's pretty damn cold which means I'm freezing my ass off at the moment. It's August right now and sooo rainy and cold that it's not even funny anymore. I seriously considered putting on a pullover or a jacket in the morning; did neither, but now I wish that I had. It was raining so heavily in the morning that until I got to work I was drenched. Which wouldn't be so bad since I don't mind if I didn't already have a cold.

Anyway. So, what has happened the last few weeks or even months? (Well, now that I think about it, it's more like months seeing as my last real entry was on May 3rd). The thing about me moving into a new flat next year May changed... and I moved into a new flat in the beginning of July o.O I've been living fairly well on my own and my friends have been over a lot since I'm the only one of them having a flat XD July hasn't been a very exciting month though - my best friend was away for three weeks and the weather wasn't that fabulous either which means that I sat in front of the computer a lot and roleplayed XD I went out like four times or so, I'm not sure. Saw Mr and Mrs Smith and Madagascar. Both movies are great, imho.

So then in August work started and so far it's great. My team is so lovely and so funny. Can you believe we've actually discussed movies, strippers (eh, long story) and going out. And yes, we do work beside that ;) A lot actually. I started out with really boring stuff like completing databases and updating them - oh for anyone who doesn't know I'm working at the RDB, its databases for jurists basically - and then they made me review homepages which was pretty fun actually but rather difficult seeing as some of them are really large. I think I might know at least 1/3 of the lawyers' names in Austria by heart by the end of August, seriously.

My mum and me are also flying to France on August 31st and staying there till 5th. We're going to stay a day in Paris before moving up to the Bretagne, Carnac. I can't wait for that - I'm sure it's going to be very relaxing and a nice start for the next school year/nice end for the summer holidays. There's only one month left until the end of it anyways. Not even; more like three weeks. Right now I'm just trying to enjoy life a bit seeing as I did fairly little in the first month of my summer holidays. My best friend got back from her 3-weeks-vacation only last sunday and I've been out and about ever since. We've (Angie, Beccy, Michi and me) been to our usual Running Sushi restaurant which was as always great fun though (as always) everyone was pretty much stuffed and a little sick afterwards, lol. On tuesday we went shopping I think though I'm not quite sure because we've been somewhere all week so it gets a little fuzzy after some time. Oh and we ended up at mine afterwards to watch Friends, haha.

On wednesday we went out and even though I had to work the next day I stayed up til 5.45am <3 Which meant only 1 1/2 hours of sleep but the evening/night was great. Angie and Beccy went home early (eh, they always do xD) and Michi, Chris and me stayed till the better end. Chris was totally drunk and kept rambling on about stupid stuff; oh yeah and he got written down by the police o.O So that was that. Work on thursday was a bit of a drag then of course, especially since I couldn't see a thing and my eyes kept falling closed lol. Despite tiredness we decided to meet up on the Heldenplatz (translated it would be called heroes place lol) but didn't stay very long because Beccy had to go home and clean her room XD So Michi and me went to my place and Beccy and Angie came over after she was done with cleaning her room (or rather, her parents locked her out or something and she didn't have a key so she couldn't get in haha). I think we might have watched Nightmare before Christmas and then Crazy (a german movie). I'm not sure about NBC though, too much has happened the past two weeks XD

Michi slept over at mine (though I doubt he did much sleeping with me taking up all of the bed haha) which was cool. So, friday... oh right, we went to the cinema to watch Sin City. First I was reluctant to go but now I'm glad that Michi dragged me there haha <3 It's a very cool movie... though I do very much suspect that they've cut a lot of the eew stuff out in Austria (I mean, OMG they actually even cut out scenes from HP2!). Afterwards Michi and me went to the Heldenplatz at night which is really pretty (but cold too) seeing as you can lie down in the grass and look up at the stars and yeah.. It's just very quiet and peaceful at night. x) We talked a lot but then got interrupted by dozens and dozens of inline-skaters and bikers oO No idea what that was about but it was probably organized by some party. Anyway, we totally forget the time and had to go home by nightline at like 2 in the morning? Well, we went to my place actually oO Did we sleep there? Or did we watch The Story of Us (an deiner Seite)? Can't remember. Anyway, went out on saturday again and met up with Flo who got back from holidays xD It was okay at first but then turned out boring.

Sunday everyone was tired and only Michi and me wanted to do something. So he came over at like 9pm lol and we watched Fight Club <3 Afterwards we somehow ended up kissing. I don't know exactly how it happened XD but it did. Was very nice though <3 On Monday I had a day off and Angie, Beccy, Michi and me went to watch Charlie and the Chocolatefactory. All I have to say is: it really wasn't my idea. XD Though the songs were fun and Johnny Depp is <3

Not a lot happened for the rest of the week, except that mainly everyone went in search for birthday presents for Angie. I got her a h&m voucher, chocolate cookies and this poster ^^" (Hey, I just realized that that logo is somewhere available as a tank top too-- I'd love to get my hands on that haha). So on Saturday we had this party "planned" (planning with my friends mostly means me trying to organize all the shit, then getting tired of it because it all only ends up in chaos anyway ^^") and despite us meeting up at like 9pm instead of 7pm like it was originally thought, it turned out pretty good. I'm pretty sure Angie liked it a lot so I'd say it was a success ;) So we played malibutwister which is mainly about getting drunk + getting out of your clothes. I didn't have much look and ended up drowning at least 12 shots and ended up sitting there half-naked haha. At least I wasn't the only one <3 Angie was pretty much drunk by the time we were done and she had to go home.

I stayed at Michi's and we watched Shrek 2 which was really fun ^^' <3 I didn't sleep a lot but that's okay, it was worth it hehe. So yeah, I left Sunday afternoon, around one I think and it took me almost an hour to get home T.T Starting 5pm I slept through till 4am monday morning and was still tired so I went back to sleep oO Work was the horror though it started good. But I had to buy two picture frames for the marketing section and the woman at the till forgot to put the check into my bag so I had to go back to get it, carrying the picture frames I bought T.T They were heavy. After work I went to buy a necklace and a ring <3 Then I went home totally beat but decided to meet up with Michi to watch LA crash. Well, at least we planned to. But until we got to the cinema we were totally drenched and a shivering cold mess... so we decided to head back to me since the bus goes directly to me from the cinema (and it only takes like 15min).

At mine we just watched 10 things I hate about you and then X-Files lol. Then Michi had to go home and I went to sleep. That's pretty much been the last two weeks. I think this long entry makes up for the two months not posting, huh? XD I'll try to keep it up, I swear... Long entries like this are no fun, at least not if you've been writing on it for days oO

I love you all (:

Btw, I'm thinking about making a german lj but then I'm a little scared that I'll abandoned this one completely haha. Or I could just change this one to a german one... But then I can delete most of my friends list x.x

#o14

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 02:03:04 GMT

What the fuck is this?

It's 4am in the morning and I can't sleep.

Fucking hot weather. I changed my bed sheets yesterday but it's so hot I think I need to do it again by tomorrow >.<

~~And no one is here to entertain me either. Guh.~~

EDITED: Ended up reading H/D fiction. Hah.

#o13

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 22:35:58 GMT

Because my crazy friend told me to.

[1] who are you?
[2] are we friends?
[3] when and how did we meet?
[4] do you have a crush on me?
[5] would you kiss me?
[6] give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[7] describe me in one word.
[8] what was your first impression?
[9] do you still think that way about me now?
[10] what reminds you of me?
[11] if you could give me anything what would it be?
[12] how well do you know me?
[13] when's the last time you saw me?
[14] ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[15] do you wanna jmp;§"/ with me ??
[16] are you going to put this on your blog and see what i say about you?

#o12

Thu, 19 May 2005 05:07:02 GMT

MERDE. Want more sleep *yawns*

8 hours of school today (2 of them are rehearsals and I'll so fuck it up because I slept 5 hours and woke up like a dozen times during the night -.-) and then lots of accounting studying afterwards.

Or perhaps I'll just take a long nap and then study like 4 hours -.-

Who knows. Need a mocca. Or two.

Edit: saw Episode III the day before - it's such a sad movie >.< and I can't believe Star Wars is all over now *weeps*

#o11 - Carve the name into my arm, instead of stressed I lie here charmed

Tue, 03 May 2005 18:12:34 GMT

So it's been a while since my last real post, hasn't it? I thought it might be a good idea to write in this thing every now and then since I think I'm going to renew my account so I can keep this username another year... or perhaps I'll change it. Any ideas for a good new username?

Either way, a lot's been happening and it's already May so I thought 'hey, why not write something about your life x.O'. I've been awfully quiet lately even though there's actually so much to tell. I don't even know where to start as it is.

First and foremost, I'm actually getting the chance to move out by May next year. Yeah, that's right. In a year. It's a bit difficult to explain except that my mum wants to move somewhere else with her boyfriend and so we're going to give the flat up we're currently living at and while she'll move somewhere with her boyfriend, I'll get my own little flat. Probably. If it works out that way. It's not set in stone yet though my mum surprised with this suggestion yesterday, actually asking me if I could even imagine that and if I thought it was wise for her to move, etc. Of course I'm okay with having my own flat-- I've been wanting to have that for years now even though I love my mum and we get along really well.

So yeah, we're probably going to look at one of the flats she found for me this friday or next week (it's a beauty, I tell you, and I really can't believe I'm writing about this now. Sheesh, still so young and I still have three years of school to go lol). Either way, I'm excited but we'll see how it works out. Like I said, nothing's set in stone just yet.

On other news, I'll also be working in August this year to earn some money and more work experience. It shouldn't be too bad-- just need to play around a little with Access and perhaps update homepages and stuff but nothing difficult x) It will be fairly easy, I hope.

Rehearsals for theatre have also started (concerning the school play we'll be doing at the end of June) and so far, they've been fun-- we're only doing the choreography at the moment (it's an operetta in case anyone is wondering and we're gonna sing playback. very funny concept and all.) so I can't wait for the text rehearsals and the costumes.

Other than that, things have been going well though school is taking up most of my time nowadays and we're getting too much homework in my opinion. Also, it's exams time again! I have business management and informatics exam next week x.X Must study for both of them, the more the better.

I'm off now - need to burn a new CD (I've been listening to my Cake cd for the past three months now everytime I go by public transportation and I think something new wouldn't be too bad...), do some homework and actually post a little on the RPG board.

#o1o - 10 Songs...

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 16:01:58 GMT

... that always manage to put you in a good mood. Post this in your journal.

My Top 10
01. Phantom Planet - California
02. The Pointers Sisters - I'm So Excited
03. Mike Oldfield - In Dulci Jubilo
04. Christina Aguilera - Hello
05. Elton John - Are You Ready For Love
06. Liquido - Narcotic
07. Fools Garden - Lemon Tree
08. Pet Shop Boys - New York City Boy
09. Adam Green - Emily
10. The Cardigans - Lovefool

Gods, I can't decide x) - Put in no particular order, by the way.

#oo9

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 18:41:29 GMT

your bitch.

What swear word are you?
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I am so amused. Though really, what else could you expect?